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I struggle with God. Not in the sense that I don’t believe, because I truly do. I mean in the sense that I’ve strayed from God. In the past all I talked about was God and I was so fired up. I read the bible constantly and was always yearning for a closer relationship with God. In the past six months or so, maybe even a year I don’t have the relationship that I use to have with God. I still read the bible and I still pray despite my beliefs going a stray compared to before. What should I do?
What you are describing is not all that uncommon. We all go through seasons in our walk with the Lord. It sounds like you were having a bit of a “mountain top experience” and you were fired up, which is a good thing and you should be thankful for that. But keeping up that level of emotion daily is unsustainable most of the time. I think emotion is one of the key factors here.
The difference you are describing seems largely emotional. You still believe like you did when you were fired up, you are still read the scriptures and pray like you did when you were in that season, what has changed is your emotional state. This is actually good news, because emotions ebb and flow. That is just the nature of emotions. So you will have more seasons of being really fired up, that is not gone forever. Also your change in emotion is not indicative of a change between you and God, you are just as saved and holy spirit filled as you ever were.
There are things you can do to facilitate that excitement though. The quickest way to get there is to serve. Find some people who are having a tough time and be the hands and feet of the gospel to them. That could be at a soup kitchen, at a retirement home, or just at an underpopulated table in the lunch room. You said you were fired up and therefore wanted to talk about Jesus, but it works the other way too. If you start talking about the Lord, or just showing kindness to people on His behalf, you will start feeling it in your bones.
You relationship with Jesus is the best thing in your life, but it easy to lose sight of that in the daily grind. That happens to everyone, it doesn’t make you a bad Christian. One of the best ways to remind yourself of that fact is to share it. Joy is not complete until it is shared, and the gospel is the same way.
-Matt from The Bridge